*2/18/10
This is my first free write entry and I have no idea what to write about. There are so many thoughts spining around my head. Far to many to even attept sorting through, but that's the way my mind works. A million ideas swirl around my brain every minute but only a few of them are actually thought upon. By that i mean to say that I'm very selective about what I think about. However I don't always stay on that topic for long. My mind jumps from subject to subject, switching topics at random. Insignificant memories float around and eventually resurface. Even if it was a little joke my friends told, or tripping on the stairs it always brings a smile to my face. Looking at baby pictures is another good example. The whole time your just thinking, "I can't believe I wore that," or even, "Did i really do that when I was a kid?"
I remember when I was little my mom always took pictures of me when i slept. Those are my favorite because I'm not just sleeping. I'm always in a akward position. For example, my mom has a picture of me lying under a crib, sleeping. There is a picture of me sleeping with a pillow on my chest and sprawled out on the bed in our guest room. There is also a picture of me on the couch. One arm was swung up and touched the top of the couch, my head has hanging off the side and my legs were on the arm rest and on top of the couch. The sad thing about that picture was that it was only taken a few years ago. I guess old habits die hard. There are other pictures that made me realize that I must not have liked wearing clothes when I was about 5 or 6, so i was far past the diaper days.
*2/24/10
I am so excited for our houseboat trip this summer. Everyone is ging this year...including me. WHich is a first beacuse usually it'd be just my mom & dad goin 2 have fun w/ the family & friends. Howver this year I get to go and I'm so excited! We'll leave on a Thursday, like always. The drive will take most of the day, so once we get there we will check into a hotel a few minutes away from the marina. Then after a night of agonizing anticipation and excitement we will drive to the marina Friday morning. There we will meet my aunt & uncle, my cousin amanda & her housband, our neighbors chris and Tisa, a family freind named John, and a few others I can't remember. Now for the accessories... My uncle owns a skiboat so he will probably tow it down for the weekend as he usually does.
*3/22/10
It's been a long time since I've been able to free write and I'm really happy about it. I 'm still super excited for the house boat trip and hoping I'll be able to take a new camera when we go. If I get a new one for my birthday that is. I'm aslo excited for that. It will be my sweet 16, even though I don't think there will be anything sweet about it. I don't want to throw a party and I know my parents wouldn't plan one. I'm not getting my own car and as strange as that sounds it's true. I don't have a job to pay for gas and i know my parents wouldn't make it that easy. That's want me to pay 1/2 if not all of the monthly car insurance, even though we have insurance through Ford. Also because I'm a new driver, rates would be really high. I don't want a car either because I'd have to take care of it and pay, out of my own money, to maintain it. I'm happy though because my dad sayed he wanted to move some money around and save up so we could maybe get a used F-150 by July. Of course I'd be used and a few years old it'd partly be my car and by then I'm hoping I'll have a job to pay for gas or a deal with my parents so I can drive when-ever where-ever.
If I could I'd probably dirve my sister to the mall, even though we'd have little to no money to spend. Drive to pick up my cousin to come and spend the night and I' d definately drive to the lake a day early, If my parents would let us stay by ourselves for one night. I doubt it, but you never know. Also I'd be able to use it for hunting, which will be really nice. We'd have alot of room for luggage and other supplies which is perfect. Also it will be a nice way to transport our two dogs to and from various places. Such as the lake and up north. My dad even talked about making some kind of divider so the dogs could have their very own side and be away from the luggage. With a truck we'll also be able to tow. That's nice because now we don't have to borrow or ask other people for us. We can tow our boat and ATV whenever we need to.
It will be a nice and interesting change because we havn't owned a car since I was a little baby. After my dad got his job with Ford, he began getting leases through work and leasing at dealerships. Now that we own a car, things will be different. We won't have to see my dad take it back in a years time. We won't get a newer or uprgaded version after time passes by. Whatever we get we got, and not much will change that. We have to make sure what we get is what we want a need, otherwise we can't say "We can put up with it for another few months. We just won't get this car again" No, when you buy a car, it's your responsibility, your everything. I know it will change things but I think this is a good change. And we'll probably still have two other vehicles so it's not like we still won't have a variety. It's just that if we buy a truck we'll always have a muscle car when we need it.
I'm not sure what else to say. Alots been going on and I'm alittle overwhelmed by it all. Soccer practice started last week and even though I'm slowly making progress I feel like I still have a long way to go and that's not a good feeling. Our first schrimage is tommarow and even though it won't be counted on our record it's still very much a game and should be treated as such. I'm also not sure if I should let my family know. We're the kind of family to support each other and watch sports games and other events. I'm afraid that with my friends and family watching it will only be more nerve racking than it is now. As much as I appreciate their support and their desire to watch and help me succeed I'm not sure I'm ready for all that attention. I know I need to keep practicing and working toward my goal but when you make a little mistake it becomes very easy to get discouraged. I try not to think about it and practice at home. It'd be nicer though if my partner was had a little more ambition but I can't do much to change that. I'd like to hang out with another team member who happens to be my friend but I'm not sure she'd want to do any practicing if we hung out. we'd probaly end up stuffing our faces with junk food and pop then laying on her couch watching tv. I know there's nothing wrong with that but when your trying your hardest to be good at something you do everything you can to avoid any unneccesary set back. I also understand that on day of lounging won't set me back. But with me it always starts with one day of lounging and soon turns into an entire week of lounging. That is why I've decided to be more motivated. Especially when summer comes. I plan on making the most of my summer, spending it outdoors, not cooped up inside all day. Which reminds me I'm super excited for summer. I really want to clean the basement, oddly, because it is an absolute mess and i'm out of time so I'm going to leave by saying "ADIOS!"
This is my first free write entry and I have no idea what to write about. There are so many thoughts spining around my head. Far to many to even attept sorting through, but that's the way my mind works. A million ideas swirl around my brain every minute but only a few of them are actually thought upon. By that i mean to say that I'm very selective about what I think about. However I don't always stay on that topic for long. My mind jumps from subject to subject, switching topics at random. Insignificant memories float around and eventually resurface. Even if it was a little joke my friends told, or tripping on the stairs it always brings a smile to my face. Looking at baby pictures is another good example. The whole time your just thinking, "I can't believe I wore that," or even, "Did i really do that when I was a kid?"
I remember when I was little my mom always took pictures of me when i slept. Those are my favorite because I'm not just sleeping. I'm always in a akward position. For example, my mom has a picture of me lying under a crib, sleeping. There is a picture of me sleeping with a pillow on my chest and sprawled out on the bed in our guest room. There is also a picture of me on the couch. One arm was swung up and touched the top of the couch, my head has hanging off the side and my legs were on the arm rest and on top of the couch. The sad thing about that picture was that it was only taken a few years ago. I guess old habits die hard. There are other pictures that made me realize that I must not have liked wearing clothes when I was about 5 or 6, so i was far past the diaper days.
*2/24/10
I am so excited for our houseboat trip this summer. Everyone is ging this year...including me. WHich is a first beacuse usually it'd be just my mom & dad goin 2 have fun w/ the family & friends. Howver this year I get to go and I'm so excited! We'll leave on a Thursday, like always. The drive will take most of the day, so once we get there we will check into a hotel a few minutes away from the marina. Then after a night of agonizing anticipation and excitement we will drive to the marina Friday morning. There we will meet my aunt & uncle, my cousin amanda & her housband, our neighbors chris and Tisa, a family freind named John, and a few others I can't remember. Now for the accessories... My uncle owns a skiboat so he will probably tow it down for the weekend as he usually does.
*3/22/10
It's been a long time since I've been able to free write and I'm really happy about it. I 'm still super excited for the house boat trip and hoping I'll be able to take a new camera when we go. If I get a new one for my birthday that is. I'm aslo excited for that. It will be my sweet 16, even though I don't think there will be anything sweet about it. I don't want to throw a party and I know my parents wouldn't plan one. I'm not getting my own car and as strange as that sounds it's true. I don't have a job to pay for gas and i know my parents wouldn't make it that easy. That's want me to pay 1/2 if not all of the monthly car insurance, even though we have insurance through Ford. Also because I'm a new driver, rates would be really high. I don't want a car either because I'd have to take care of it and pay, out of my own money, to maintain it. I'm happy though because my dad sayed he wanted to move some money around and save up so we could maybe get a used F-150 by July. Of course I'd be used and a few years old it'd partly be my car and by then I'm hoping I'll have a job to pay for gas or a deal with my parents so I can drive when-ever where-ever.
If I could I'd probably dirve my sister to the mall, even though we'd have little to no money to spend. Drive to pick up my cousin to come and spend the night and I' d definately drive to the lake a day early, If my parents would let us stay by ourselves for one night. I doubt it, but you never know. Also I'd be able to use it for hunting, which will be really nice. We'd have alot of room for luggage and other supplies which is perfect. Also it will be a nice way to transport our two dogs to and from various places. Such as the lake and up north. My dad even talked about making some kind of divider so the dogs could have their very own side and be away from the luggage. With a truck we'll also be able to tow. That's nice because now we don't have to borrow or ask other people for us. We can tow our boat and ATV whenever we need to.
It will be a nice and interesting change because we havn't owned a car since I was a little baby. After my dad got his job with Ford, he began getting leases through work and leasing at dealerships. Now that we own a car, things will be different. We won't have to see my dad take it back in a years time. We won't get a newer or uprgaded version after time passes by. Whatever we get we got, and not much will change that. We have to make sure what we get is what we want a need, otherwise we can't say "We can put up with it for another few months. We just won't get this car again" No, when you buy a car, it's your responsibility, your everything. I know it will change things but I think this is a good change. And we'll probably still have two other vehicles so it's not like we still won't have a variety. It's just that if we buy a truck we'll always have a muscle car when we need it.
I'm not sure what else to say. Alots been going on and I'm alittle overwhelmed by it all. Soccer practice started last week and even though I'm slowly making progress I feel like I still have a long way to go and that's not a good feeling. Our first schrimage is tommarow and even though it won't be counted on our record it's still very much a game and should be treated as such. I'm also not sure if I should let my family know. We're the kind of family to support each other and watch sports games and other events. I'm afraid that with my friends and family watching it will only be more nerve racking than it is now. As much as I appreciate their support and their desire to watch and help me succeed I'm not sure I'm ready for all that attention. I know I need to keep practicing and working toward my goal but when you make a little mistake it becomes very easy to get discouraged. I try not to think about it and practice at home. It'd be nicer though if my partner was had a little more ambition but I can't do much to change that. I'd like to hang out with another team member who happens to be my friend but I'm not sure she'd want to do any practicing if we hung out. we'd probaly end up stuffing our faces with junk food and pop then laying on her couch watching tv. I know there's nothing wrong with that but when your trying your hardest to be good at something you do everything you can to avoid any unneccesary set back. I also understand that on day of lounging won't set me back. But with me it always starts with one day of lounging and soon turns into an entire week of lounging. That is why I've decided to be more motivated. Especially when summer comes. I plan on making the most of my summer, spending it outdoors, not cooped up inside all day. Which reminds me I'm super excited for summer. I really want to clean the basement, oddly, because it is an absolute mess and i'm out of time so I'm going to leave by saying "ADIOS!"